Newbie Schmoobie

Newbie Schmoobie. Being new is no excuse to sit paralyzed staring at a blinking cursor all day. Not that I'm doing that. Instead, I've become addicted to Facebook. Surfing the internet is one of the worst best worst best most enabling things a world class procrastinator like me could ever have at her disposal - when procrastinating, of course - which is 99% of the time.

I love to write. Maybe I said that already. The problem is I don't always know what to write about. Or I think I know what to write about but I second guess myself. Or I talk to myself, like now, and thinking entirely too much about what you (the one looking at the screen) is going to think of me. I don't even know you. Right now there isn't a you. No one is reading this yet. What am I getting so stressed out about?

It's all because I want you to be there. I want you to read what I'm saying. I want you to want to come back. I want to be likable. I want to be interesting. That's the thing. I don't want to be boring. Or worthless. Or stupid. Silly is ok, but never stupid. I want you to like me. Really like me. :) (what would we do without Sally Field?)

So here I am forcing myself to do the very thing I love most to do. And someday someone will read it. And someday someone will come back. And read more. And more. And like me. And that someone will be you.

I wonder if Jen Lancaster ever felt this way.

Ceinna Saying #2 - It's ok to be yourself - no matter who that happens to be at any given moment.